today finally saw him,
i always fear to see him,
but god finally let me saw him,
and saw him very happy eating lok lok with his housemates,
is really surprizing me when i saw him,
i were like starring at them only,...
and actually i already have courage to talk with him and his frens,
but from far away,i already observe his response
he really cant face me or what,
i saw him try to ignore us....
and try not to look at us,
and i began to walk back....
and try to ignore too....
i really dun wan to meet him situation like this,
he already promised me that he still treat me as friend de....
but from just now situation,
i think he look very scare and dun wan to choi me
really make me feel more sad...
is he hurtled me.....
now he hurting me 2nd round.....
haiz...
i duno wat to say...
i reli hope everything in my life from now can be veli good lo
i hate life avoid this and that....
i haaate love...
i think i not suppose to have love relationship at all....
better be a superwoman without any guys....
